over it

You know what?
I am over it. I am over trying to figure out how to act so that everyone will find me the way they want me.
Tired of playing inside the lines. Living by anyone else's guidelines but my own.
Being a Libran, I want to be liked and acceptable. Even while I am writing this, I feel the instinct to sensor, to say what I want but in a way that is palatable.
Raw.
Wide open.
Me.
I'm not for everyone. I am like a hurricane. My waves are big, thrilling. My winds are strong and powerful. Actually, I am like a hurricane level sunshower. I have light. I am not all dark and stormy and I don't want to be. I want to have FUN.
This is about acceptance. It isn't about others. It is about allowing myself what I want, to be who I am and to do it with relish! And not the pickle kind.
I love the quote from Vincent Van Gogh.

I am seeking, I am striving, I am in it with all my heart.

- Vincent van Gogh

I am tired of living with a body that is too big to do the stuff I want to do.
I am tired of living in a house that is too small for what I want to do.
I am tired of living with a bank account that is too limiting for what I want to do.
Too little light.
Too much restriction.
Too many shoulds.
Not enough woohoos!

This isn't bitching. This is just to say that it is time. It's time to accept more. Not less. To accept what I want and not what I don't. I am guessing it is going to take some commitment. Take a strength that I must muster some time but it's worth it. To take no prisoners. Not to volunteer to be a prisoner, waiting in vain for someone to grant me parole.
To live without judgment of others or myself.
Yea, live without judgment.
Part of me wants to apologize to those whom will be uncomfortable with it but that's not up to me.
Being me, I send out WAVES of love and joy and light and everything FABULOUS! My wish for the world is the same one I wish for myself.
Live with joy! Live your dreams. Be who you are. Be present. Be love. Be joyful. Be grateful and have a great life. Have great expectations and hope like a kid on Christmas Morning. Be satisfied like you were with the best meal you have ever eaten. Forgive with abandon. Breathe with fullness. Love with no limits. Feel. Go for it, whatever it is.
love you all
me

Too little or just right?

Spent the day in Kure and Wrightsville Beaches yesterday. Forgot how to use sunscreen apparently but enough of that.
I was watching, somewhat horrified, by the people fishing from the pier. They were catching lots of little fish and then going through what seems a horrible ritual of getting the hook out and throwing the fish back into the ocean. It was torture. Erik said we needed to move on.
As we were leaving the pier, there was a pelican who was sitting right on the rail. I was stepping closer and closer to catch this guy's photo.
But that wasn't the catch that he/she was interested in. There was an older woman who was fishing next to this guy and apparently they had an understanding.
She had a fish that was too small to keep but apparently the perfect size for a pelican's lunch.
This just made my heart soar. I think that this was one of the best moments of the day trip.
I went up to the woman and said that was the best thing I had ever seen done with a fish that was too small to keep. She gave me a far away smile, but said nothing. I guess it was just what she does. Period. Fantastic!

Some new lovelies are in the shop today!

I had fun this week. Though the number of additions to my shop is small, I absolutely love them. In fact, I may make some for myself! For those of you who know me, while I love designing jewelry, I really don't wear that much myself.
Here are the photos for this week!
I am already about half way through with a copper and pearl bracelet. It is loaded with pearls, each one hand wrapped on the bracelet. Really pretty.
in joy...

While Grocery Shopping...

Hoping this means something else in Spanish!

Presto Change-O!

The day had finally arrived. I was getting close to whacking off my own hair but Sandy made me promise not to. It was only sisterly love (and a small bit of fear) that kept the hair on my head.
It was worth the wait!

This is the before shot...when I still have some hair and a lot of it was gray! Sandy waits in the wings to take center stage with her shears.



The Hairtiste prepares the new color that will be my new "natural" color.
Did I mention how much I love getting all hot under a dryer? Has menopause not given me enough of a power surge? I think I started the bitching after about 10 minutes. "how much longer? I think I am done now. How much longer?" Oh yeah, I was a peach. Sandy cranked up a room air conditioner just to try to keep me quiet. HA!

The new do. Expertly styled. Sandy suggested that I get my friend Erik to take a picture THAT DAY as she has no confidence that I would be able to replicate the look. Oh, ye of little faith.


The next day I find my hair dryer (wasn't really sure that I still had one). I found the little travel hair dryer in the back of the linen closet. I washed my hair and put the amazing smelling Morrocan Oil Hair Indulgence in my hair. I got my Mud stuff, the bedhead stuff and the hair spray. I dried and plucked and volumized and all sorts of things that looked like what Sandy did.
I called her in the afternoon and she agreed to give me a remedial drying lesson and didn't even say "I was afraid of this." Thank God I don't have a video phone because I would surely have seen an epic eye rolling.
Thanks, Sandy. For the hours of weaving and highlights and low lights and working on your day off and being an awesome sister. I love you and I love the new do!

Shop Update

Just a few photos from this week's shop update. Check out the little teaser...last photo here.

Pretty shell earrings, open and fun.


These earrings remind me of little worlds!

Good enough to eat...though probably hard on the teeth!

One of my favorites. Handcrafted fine silver piece of wearable art.
Oh how tweet! (sorry, I didn't want to resist!) I love this so MUCH!!! Will make its debut next week!
Visit the store by clicking here or clicking on the etsy link to the right. Enjoy!

In the Pink!

I can't take credit for this photo. In fact, I would be happy to have just seen this beauty, sans camera. Just had to share.
"The world's only pink Bottlenose dolphin which was discoverd in an inland lake in Louisiana..."
Apparently this is what an albino dolphin looks like. How fantastic? Reports say that this sweetie is bright pink! The article (http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/newstopics/howaboutthat/4927224/Pink-dolphin-appears-in-US-lake.html) says that conservationists are concerned about the impact that visitors could have. I have to admit...I SO wish that I could see this pink dolphin. I hate when I am who people are afraid of! But this makes me even more committed to my 50th bday celebration of swimming with the dolphins!
Go be whoever you are and shine in your own brilliance!